Daily Archives: December 30, 2015
WELL DANG ME

A big clash with a family member today. Tis is a truly squiffy time this year.
LIVE AND LET LIVE.
Meeting is done. Lunch at Pomegranate with the group. Then the phone clash.
LIVE AND LET LIVE.
Dashed if I have any other ideas.

I am sober. I am clean.
LOWER YOUR STANDARDS – said Rog to me once. Clean today is good enough.
ASK NOTHING.
OFFER NOTHING.
Next time I shall hang up more quickly. I DID not invite that phone call and I do not accept the abuse.
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Now to work on the stuff that has been troubling me.
One way or another, I seem to have offended quite a lot of people this Summer. It could be simply that I am offensive or it could be that I am getting well. I have experienced those things before.
Both of them. One thing I do know is that I have been trying to make people happy and OK and failing. Another thing that I know is that I have also been trying to find safe places for myself by giving money and throwing scenes. Done now. Done now.
I AM SITTING letting words I have heard come to mind.
TENNIS EDDIE FROM COOGEE- keep the little blue flame of outrage burning ready to light up when needed.
BEDE FROM RANDWICK – treat yourself like your own best friend.
NICHOLAS FROM COFFS – on being told that he was very sensitive – yes I put a lot of hard work into being this sensitive.
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The main thing I have been doing is what Step 3 says – trying to organise the whole show. Trying to make things OK for the people I love. I have blown it somehows.
HANDS OFF NOW, LYNNE. NO MORE.
Come into the Kitchen and dance M’Lady.
Snuggle in with me and I shall take you travelling.
THE WORM HAS TURNED.
FUA.
It is NOT my business what other people think of me.
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STEP 3 FROM THE BIG BOOK .