No God has created it, because whenever something is created there is purpose. Whenever something is created there is a motive, and when somebody creates it, the created can never be anything other than a machine. Existence has no use as such, it remains eternal, an eternal play of energies in millions of forms.
Fun is the most sacred word, far more sacred than prayer. It is the only word that can give you a sense of playfulness, can make you again a child. You can start running after butterflies, searching for seashells on the beach, coloured stones.
Today, I walked to Town. How good is that ? Walked to town. That’s twice in one week.
I bought meat from the Butcher.
I did the meeting which was once again strong.
I got a lift home.
Simple day. And the No Car Idea is appealing more and more to me. Only thing is that John reminded me that I said once in a meeting :
IF YOU HAVE A VERY GOOD IDEA, RUN IT PAST SOMEONE AND SEE HOW THEY REACT.
SO I SHALL run it past KB and RQ and Mad O’Brian and see how they react.
I also had a call from Coffs Hep C clinic. Sally. I have an appointment next Thursday to see her and then Cataract on Friday.
I am taking both appointments on advisement. I shall sleep on them.
IF IT SEEMS URGENT – DON’T DO IT.
It is odd to feel energetic like this. It leaves me a bit up in the air. I had become accustomed to being too weak to do very much in a day and to needing a long sleep. These few days are not like that. I have energy to spare although the strength is still marginal. It leaves me up in the Air because I don’t quite know what to do with myself. I have done some token weeding and watering of the Garden. I am no gardener.
I have wandered idly around. Its good but it is new to me.
IT DOESN’T HAPPEN OVERNIGHT
We are not cured of alcoholism. What we really have is a daily
reprieve contingent on the maintenance of our spiritual condition.
ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 85
The most common alcoholic fantasy seems to be: “If I just don’t
drink, everything will be all right.” Once the fog cleared for me, I
saw – for the first time – the mess my life had become. I had family,
work, financial and legal problems; I was hung up on old religious
ideas; there were sides of my character to which I was inclined to stay blind
because they easily could have convinced me that I was hopeless and
pushed me toward escape again. The Big Book guided me in
resolving all of my problems. But it didn’t happen overnight – and
certainly not automatically – with no effort on my part. I need always to
recognize God’s mercy and blessings that shine through any problem
I have to face.
And here am I at 28 years clean and sober, in much the same position as I was at the start. Seemingly. Seemingly. My life has become a mess again – not my doing but a mess nonetheless. Reconstruction is under way.
I don’t drink and I don’t drug. And I have a reprieve. My mind is far less fogged than it has been. Now I see that I have more changes to make.
It doesn’t matter if NONE of it happens overnight. One step at a time. Today – It is SUMMER. I like Summertime.
Iman Abdulmajid, who has been married to Bowie since 1992, shared two poignant tweets on Jan. 9 and 10.One day after Bowie’s 69th birthday and one day before his passing, Imam posted one of her daily inspirational sayings on Twitter under the hashtag #ImanDaily. “Sometimes you never know the true value of a moment until it becomes a memory,” she shared.On Jan. 10, Iman posted a second inspirational saying that read, “The struggle is real, but so is God.”
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