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God knows where I am. I only know I am out of fuel, entirely. Could make it through. Could die. Could relapse. Might make the breakthrough to the next stage of spiritual development. Can’t even get in the back seat of a car for a lift to a meeting. Don’t even want to go to one. Don’t want NUFFIN. I want to physical pain to go away. I want a whole heap of things and now I do not know which ones I need except that I am so very tired.

Je suis perdue. The only thing I know is that I am NOT fighting my way out this myself.

HCV Advocate –

Welcome to the HCV AdvocateAUGUST 28, 2015 BY ALAN FRANCISCUSWelcome to the HCV Advocate website.Welcome! If you are new to our Website or the latest design I hope that your experience will be a productive one.  The purpose of this introduction is to acquaint you with some of the features of the website.If you are looking for specific information, you may want to start at the Google search engine located at the right of the page (bottom of the page on mobile and tablets).The top bar has a list of the pages:Home: This will always take you back here, to our Home page.  Under this tab, we have information About Us, a Site Map, and a form you can use to Contact Us.Newly Diagnosed: Information and a printable brochure to help newly diagnosed patientsTreatment Issues: Treatment-related information: fact sheets about approved medications, side effects, and moreFact Sheets: This lists all of our fact sheets including our Easy C Facts, HCSP Fact Sheets, FAQ, Guides, Coinfection Facts, Chinese Easy C’s, and TattoosResources: Disability Benefits, Glossaries (Medical & Herbal), Helpful links including support groupsEspanol: Fact Sheets in SpanishHBV: A web page dedicated to hepatitis BNewsletter: All of our newsletters back to 2013I hope this information is helpful. If you have any questions or concerns, click here to contact us.Alan

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Harvoni is Safe and Effective in Seniors With Hepatitis C – HEP

Gilead Sciences’ Harvoni (ledipasvir/sofosbuvir) is safe and effective in treating hepatitis C virus (HCV) among individuals age 65 and up, Reuters Health reports. Publishing their findings in the journal Hepatology, researchers analyzed data on 2,293 people with hep C enrolled in four Phase III trials of Harvoni. Twelve percent (264) of the participants were age 65 or older. Among this group, 24 were age 75 or older. Ninety-seven percent (1,965 of 2,029) of those under age 65 achieved a sustained virologic response 12 weeks after completing therapy (SVR12, considered a cure), as did 98 percent (258 of 264) of those age 65 and up. The most common adverse health issues in both the older and younger age groups, experienced by at least 10 percent of participants, were headache and fatigue. The rates of individuals stopping treatment because of apparent side effects was similar in the two age groups. Forty-five percent (1,042) of the participants were also treated with ribavirin, which increased the number of adverse health issues, treatment-related adverse health issues, and such health problems that led to a modification or termination of treatment. These effects were pronounced among elderly individuals. Ribavirin did not increase the cure rate among the participants.

Source: Harvoni is Safe and Effective in Seniors With Hepatitis C – HEP


I have survived one more day. I  guess I am letting go of control now. Maybe for the first time in recovery. Due to the addition of the codeine and opioid. I thought I was OK early this morning and took my pre dawn ride around the waterfront.Got some great shots of sunrise but when I got home Pain set in once more and next thing I was down and under once more. Now I don’t know what’s sickness and what is Paralysing Grief. Now I no longer know whether or not I am going to be able to make it or not. Its a very curious place to pass my days in. I don’t know that I can face life without him , without a Helpmeet. I don’t know whether I have one more moment’s struggle in me. I don’t tonight, any old hows. Tonight. Pretty Pictures.Blogs. That will do me for one night. A calmness is upon me. The pain has reduced one more stage. Its peaceful here with cicadas or crickets. The surf has quietened down.The Baby kookaburras are about.Maybe soon I can go to bed.


Tick saliva discovery could be key to treating blood and immune disorders – ABC News (Australian Broadcasting Corporation)

Tick saliva discovery could be key to treating blood and immune disorders

The World Today By Penny Timms

PHOTO: When a tick attaches to a human, it injects a substance that blocks immune rescinders (Flickr: John Tann)

AustraliaThe discovery of how the proteins in a tick’s saliva stop a human’s immune system from running amok could be the answer to treating life-threatening blood disorders, researchers say.

Source: Tick saliva discovery could be key to treating blood and immune disorders – ABC News (Australian Broadcasting Corporation)


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ITS been Easter and quite pleasant albeit painful  and confusing with odd drugs in me. JON CALLED AND I VOMITED AND VOMITED in the Loo. Sweet Lord almighty. I am tired. Worn out and don’t really know what’s going on. Life has seriously become very peculiar for me now. Very strange indeed. I won’t be writing anything much about it at this time. I am too wasted. Too much pain remnant and too damned peculiar.