Too hard. All too hard. Something is wrong with the eye. I have drops and will have a follow through. I am done in.

Today – the eye specialist said that I was right and the vision was very blurry and there is maybe something else wrong  and it could also have been related to the pain of last week. I have drops and tests to be done in one month.

Later in the day the Community Nurse Chronic Care came and she thinks it would be wise for me to go into a hostel.

I may have come to a new defeat and a new despair but perhaps also to a new decision.

And someone does want me.