COUSIN

ME AND CHERLY

As I continue to wander in my own private hell, moments come which are brighteners. Tonight was one of them. A young cousin came calling with her husband and I was afraid and ashamed of my living conditions – but it was a damned good night. They didn’t mind at all. Easy and happy. What a difference a cousin makes.

I kind of took the day off emotionally as well and just lay about reading. That was a fine thing so it was. The caravan is emptied and ready to be moved tomorrow. Strange shedding but so be it.

I have eaten out with my cousins and all is well.

Daniel Berrigan’s Ten Commandments:

4201) Call on Jesus when all else fails. Call on Him when all else succeeds (except that never happens).

2) Don’t be afraid to be afraid or appalled to be appalled. How do you think the trees feel these days, or the whales, or, for that matter, most humans?

3) Keep your soul to yourself. Soul is a possession worth paying for, they’re growing rarer. Learn from monks, they have secrets worth knowing.

4) About practically everything in the world, there’s nothing you can do. This is Socratic wisdom. However, about of few things you can do something. Do it, with a good heart.

5) On a long drive, there’s bound to be a dull stretch or two. Don’t go anywhere with someone who expects you to be interesting all the time. And don’t be hard on your fellow travelers. Try to smile after a coffee stop.

6) Practically no one has the stomach to love you, if you don’t love yourself. They just endure. So do you.

7) About healing: The gospels tell us that this was Jesus’ specialty and he was heard to say: “Take up your couch and walk!”

8) When traveling on an airplane, watch the movie, but don’t use the earphones. Then you’ll be able to see what’s going on, but not understand what’s happening, and so you’ll feel right at home, little different then you do on the ground.

9) Know that sometimes the only writing material you have is your own blood.

10) Start with the impossible. Proceed calmly towards the improbable. No worry, there are at least five exits.

from Ten Commandments for the Long Haul by Daniel Berrigan