They tell me that I need a place in better condition than this one – without the steps and yard. I would have argued a year back but I am weary now. I want change as well. I just don’t know how to get from here to there.

They tell me Grief is a big thing and I know that it is. I need an easier lifestyle now. The Occupational Therapist who came today was astute. I doubt that she can help me but her words helped for one day at least.

I agreed to go to Grafton to Founders’ Day on Saturday. That’s a big one because the last one I was with Izzy. I have not been North of Coffs for two years. Not since he died.

I have also scored a microwave, a washing machine and a slow cooker from free/swap on Facebook.

There is fluid back on my legs and I don’t feel as bright as I would like to but I am OK.

Its cold and late and I am hoping for a full night’s sleeping.

All is fundamentally well.

Some of us

who look to be crazy

are perhaps



    I drive out to Amoonguna to tell the family he

is right

I sit down with his Aunty, round the campfire, in

the night

I ask her to explain the pelicans and the meaning

of the sign

She laughs and whispers ‘Arrangkwe just 2 pelicans

in the sky!’

Ali Cobby Eckermann. little bit long time. Australian Poetry Centre, Balclava, 2009.


I slept all night. That has become so rare that it is a fine treasure for me.

Noe its sunny but cold. Looks to me like the fridge has broken and my clothesline snapped with a full load of washing on it.

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So – the fridge ain’t working and the clothesline has snapped and it seems I owe money here and there.

So what ?

I can’t work out how to move house so I may not be ready for such a thing.

So what ?

Preferable to the even that deprives one of life.