They tell me that I need a place in better condition than this one – without the steps and yard. I would have argued a year back but I am weary now. I want change as well. I just don’t know how to get from here to there.
They tell me Grief is a big thing and I know that it is. I need an easier lifestyle now. The Occupational Therapist who came today was astute. I doubt that she can help me but her words helped for one day at least.
I agreed to go to Grafton to Founders’ Day on Saturday. That’s a big one because the last one I was with Izzy. I have not been North of Coffs for two years. Not since he died.
I have also scored a microwave, a washing machine and a slow cooker from free/swap on Facebook.
There is fluid back on my legs and I don’t feel as bright as I would like to but I am OK.
Its cold and late and I am hoping for a full night’s sleeping.
All is fundamentally well.
Some of us
who look to be crazy
I drive out to Amoonguna to tell the family he
I sit down with his Aunty, round the campfire, in
I ask her to explain the pelicans and the meaning
of the sign
She laughs and whispers ‘Arrangkwe just 2 pelicans
in the sky!’
Ali Cobby Eckermann. little bit long time. Australian Poetry Centre, Balclava, 2009.