WINTERTIME

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IT s pretty chilly. They say it will get colder.

I can breathe better today and I feel better.  Better-ish. I did the meeting. I did not wish to but nor do I wish to feel or go crazy. I wore my pyjama pants under my jeans and it was a heavy duty meeting. Thank God for that. Always makes me feel better – the deep recovery.

ONE MORE DAY DONE.

Still the sore neck. Still vague and not ordering my affairs. Still kind of flatline a lot of the time and not making very active decisions – but I am OK. I am OK.  By that I mean I am not in mental or spiritual pain – the 2 agonies which I fear and do not handle well at all.

gratitude

  • a home I can afford
  • meetings
  • computers that work
  • bed with an electric blanket
  • and a big gas heater

GULLS BOAT

FROM JENNY

Jennifer Carter with Lynne Sanders-Braithwaite.

 Medowie ·

Your throat will burn and your eyes will ache,
Your chest raw – numb – empty, from what life did just take;
And when you think you’ve no more tears to release,
Eyes leak again; as you hope he is safe, that he rest in peace

Take a breath and blow out deep
Cherish sweet memories while you weep
Your love, your bond, is not of this plane,
Take heart, take comfort, you will meet again

Take time now to nurture you,
There’s a lot ahead my friend, so much to get through
Accept offers of comfort from the ones you love
Let them take care of here – now, while you float above

Take a breath and blow out deep
Cherish sweet memories while you weep
Your love, your bond, is not of this plane,
Take heart, take comfort, you will meet again

There are no good words, no quick way to heal
Just honour all you experience, let it out, all you feel
Moment by moment, all time is ‘now’
You will find it inside you, never mind ‘how’…

Sending much love, healing, hugs and support – truly so very sorry for your loss