ONE MORE NA MEETING AND ONE MORE DAY AT HOME

BIG GAS HEATER ON. Netflix on TV and the electric blanket for later. Dani takes me to meetings and all in all – things are OK.  I am now either fluid filled or have put on too much weight again. That needs attending to.

Hey – you know . I just spin out when I try to make appointments and keep commitments. Some of it is post come and mid grief and some of it is my purely ornery attitude which I have had for many years.

So – I am continuing with what is working for me. First – go to meetings and don’t pick up.

Somehow that clears spaces for other things to come.

I also went for my daily pony ride. My life seems so small at times. Then I make the decision to LOOK. Carefully. At small details. The one rabbit. The pelicans. I go to Spar and I ride the Concrete Path. In my own way I am a defeated woman and have been since the Night of the Valium Wrestle. In the Defeat is Release and Peace of a kind.  Don’t use and go to Meetings.

DO THE DAY. CELA SUFFICE. 

LIDO SUNSET 2

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