Today, the Workers continued outside the BeachShack. Rumbling machines and workmen and grand visions of which I know nothing at all. I am relaxed into it now and simply trusting. It IS interesting.
Then the Girls came and we had a happy time. Saf was talking about Izzy days of Music and Pirates.
Small simple Healings.
Deep practical Acceptance.
I either have fluid on or have gained a weight which takes me just over the critical point. Some cramping. Minor but I have been free of it for months and I don’t like it. I also have tightness of flesh over ankles etc. The bleeding has eased a lot and the pain in the neck is minimal.
The weather is still cold and things look shoddy and depressive to me but I am simply not collapsing into despair .
Because today we sang and climbed trees down at the Lagoon and I walked over instead of riding the Pony. Now it is Facetime with Eden and tomorrow they are going to MOGO ZOO.
ALL IS WELL IN THE HERE AND NOW.
You see – almost 29 years ago, I was addicted to heroin, alcohol, pills and other substances. I crazy , sick, living amongst violence and despair. I was 20 years into drug addiction. Very seriously ill and certifiably insane. The last July was a whirling madness of horror and absolute devastation. Shame was eating my Soul and I had 2 small children who were neglected, frightened and tormented. My husband was likewise addicted and we lived out West of Bellingen. Driving drunk. Spending days in the Pub. Growing crops and using Smack.
IT IS NOT LIKE THAT ANYMORE and Gloriously it is not like that for my children or their children. We live well and we live decent lives. Tonight – I am so glad of that.