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Bed all day again despite an invite for lunch in North Bello. I said NO which surprised me. I have until now been desperate for any sharing of time in case it were our last together. This time, I felt well and we made plans with them for tomorrow. That is a seemingly small thing but a big one to me.

In the end I stayed home all day long and mostly drowsy and in bed. Before I met Iz, I did a lot of these Shabbos days – deeply meditative and healing.

I realised that way back I ceased doing almost anything because I either got it wrong or – more significantly – did things I wish I didn’t. Like use drugs. Mix with wrong people. I sort of froze into drug addiction. Damage is done and even all these years later , I do not easily DO things I see other people do. Like cook.  Or grow gardens.

Mind you – nor do I wish to.

I have spent another day with a huge reduction in Fear even though it is similar to how I was feeling just before Iz died. Comfortable and hopeful and content. The rug was ripped out from under that one. Nonetheless, it was there today and it is a blessed place to be in.




Another small day. Hungry though I become for “MORE” , the small days seem to be suiting me well.

I have spaghetti to warm for dinner.

Today has seen a marked improvement. I seem to have been able to stop the bleeding with the tablets and today I have been fit enough to walk and wash clothes and hang them as well as oiling the wooden shack floors.

Now its Facetime with Eden. Friday Evening.

WordPress post thingo has been playing up and Facebook photos are looping out so I am learning all manner of things.


Taking a look at Astrodienst – just for interest.

Pluto trine Saturn: Toughening upEnd of January 2015 until beginning of December 2016: At this time you will make gradual but very profound changes in your life and create structures that will last a long time. You work at this task with great patience and attention to detail, because you are not working for today only. You are working for tomorrow as well.This influence confers great endurance, which enables you to work slowly over a long period of time to eliminate those elements of your life that have become unnecessary and limiting, replacing them with structures that are more relevant to your present activities.This is a period of slow but profound change within yourself also. Certain aspects of your character are changing and taking on a form that will last for many years. This change may be reflected in certain external changes in your public appearance or any other important activity in your life.You are likely to be very careful about everything that you do under this influence. Because you try not to waste anything, the people around you may think you are excessively conservative. But really you are just acting with great discipline.Whether or not it is necessary, you are able now to get along with very little in the way of material goods. And you have a phenomenal ability to contend with adversity if you have to. This influence has the effect of toughening you up considerably.A related effect is that persons in authority may give you considerable power to reorganize a structure at some level. They are acknowledging your disciplined, orderly approach to every task, which is characteristic of this influence.

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Pluto square Neptune: Individuality ignoredBeginning of February 2015 until mid-December 2016: During this time you will have to cope with powerful outside forces that seem to take no regard of your individual ego. Your individuality will not be challenged so much as ignored, unless you stand in the way of these forces, in which case you may have some extremely discouraging experiences.Elements of your life that you have always counted on may begin to pass away in ways that are extremely difficult to understand. There will be no dramatic signs of social struggle and change, but the old order is passing away. What may be most difficult to accept is that there seems to be nothing that you can fight directly. It is as if many circumstances, relationships, possessions and various other conditions of your life have lost their right to be and are withering away. You can waste your time regretting this situation, thereby putting yourself into the same position, or you can come to terms with the new world and become part of it. This is one of the decisions you will have to make, although probably your internal conditioning will determine your decision in advance.Another side of this influence is that hidden aspects of your unconscious mind may flare up and begin to influence your life now. Elements of your personality that you prefer to keep hidden from others may become so evident that you can no longer avoid them.The only solution, therefore, is to deal with them. They are probably not as bad as you think anyway. It is not their intrinsic nature but repression that makes them seem bad. Now you must throw away the past conditioning that makes you reject these perfectly valid aspects of yourself.


Jupiter trine Jupiter: An opportunityEnd of December 2015 until mid-August 2016: This influence usually represents a time of optimism and positive thinking in your life. You seem to be at a quiet point of balance that enables you to look over the affairs of your life and get a good perspective on them. Therefore, it is a good time to make long-range plans and to reorganize. You should use this time to gain new perspectives through education or travel or by participating in one of the consciousness raising activities or groups that exist now.This is a time of psychological and physical equilibrium. If you have recently been ill in either body or mind, this influence will help tremendously with the healing process.This is also a good time to examine your ideals and your goals, for it may be possible to actualize them in various ways now. At other times there is too much tension in your life or too much resistance from others. If you are involved in any movement for reform, now is a good time to take some positive action. Or you might become more involved in religion or philosophy, because you need to know much that is beyond the apparent order of things.It is quite possible that you will do nothing during this time, because it gives you a feeling of balance but no drive to do anything in particular. You have an unusual sense of ease and relaxation now. This is also a good time to travel, both for relaxation and for educational reasons.The important point to remember with this influence is that it is fundamentally an opportunity. You will not feel driven by any energies, nor will you feel any resistance to your efforts to do something. You can make great use of this time, but you have to take the initiative.


Uranus opposition Sun: Security vs. freedomBeginning of July 2016 until beginning of March 2018: During this time you should look for sudden changes in your environment that challenge your expression as an individual and force you to take a stand about what you really are. A sudden challenge in the outer world may force you to take more responsibility for your life. Typical effects of this influence would include sudden events concerning men; unexpected circumstances that force you to change your course of action; sudden changes in a relationship, especially if you have not allowed self-expression for yourself or your partner; and sudden changes in health, involving your heart and circulatory system especially.By this time you have built up a lifestyle that you consider valid and practically realizable. Most adults by now have given up certain ideals and goals as impossible. You have probably surrendered large parts of yourself as an accommodation with reality. The suppressed energies from this source lie behind the manifestation of this influence. It demands that hidden pressures be released, but you will probably feel that these events are happening to you rather than that you are doing them. What is happening is the passing away of something that has prevented you from being free. The trouble is that most people come to value security and predictability over freedom of self-expression. Consequently this influence is frequently upsetting.


Jupiter conjunction Mercury: ForesightFrom 8 October 2016 until 17 October 2016: At this time you are able to combine breadth of vision with sharp perception and intellect, knowledge of the particular with knowledge of the general, and thereby see the whole scope of anything you are involved in. This reveals itself as foresight and long-range planning ability. This is a good time to map out your future, because you can understand and interrelate all the elements that will affect your life.At the same time, you feel optimistic and proceed with the belief that everything will come out exactly as you want it to. And it probably will, because you don’t get completely carried away with grandiose thinking. This influence usually indicates a good balance between details and generality in your thinking, but there is also a tendency to deemphasize the details and not pay adequate attention to them. If you are not careful, this can result in sloppy or hasty thinking. Be sure to slow down somewhat and do not get carried away with your plans. Otherwise, this is an excellent time to make decisions or to conclude any kind of transaction. It is a superb time to buy or sell, because you will almost certainly be satisfied with the deal.As your mind tries to expand, you will want to learn more and more. This is a good time for returning to school, but even on a less formal level you will be anxious to learn. You may even travel long distances with this aim in mind. Any dealings with the law should prove to be quite fortunate for you now. You will prepare for such a confrontation skillfully, leaving no loose ends to trip you up.Communications with others are exceedingly fortunate under this influence. Your optimism and positive state of mind bring you good news from others concerning matters of importance. At the same time, everything that you say to others is very positive and reinforcing, which leaves good feelings behind you wherever you go.


Jupiter conjunction Neptune: A sense of compassionMid-November 2016 until end of July 2017: During this time your ideals will be aroused as they seldom are at other times, and you will approach life with a greater sense of compassion. People who cannot help themselves will win your sympathy especially, whether you encounter them personally or through working with others in a charitable enterprise. Your primary concern is to help individuals by giving them a hand. You may be less concerned with transforming the social order that has given rise to the conditions that oppress the people you are dealing with.Your interest in spiritual, religious and mystical philosophy is likely to grow at this time, and you may become involved in a group that is studying these subjects. This world no longer seems to meet your needs adequately, so you have to turn inward to find a world that can give you what you really need. Here, too, you will discover that the ego’s drives for self-gratification and self-assertion may be the major factors in preventing you from getting what you want out of life. At this time the demands of the ego must be quieted at least a little, so you can hear what the inner self is really saying.Unfortunately there is another side to this influence, which you should watch for. Some people develop a feeling of false happiness, like living in the dream world of an opium smoker, with no basis in reality. You may feel that everything is all right when it is not, or you may feel that you can do anything you want and get away with it. That is why this influence is often associated with gambling or taking risks with limited resources, often with disastrous results. This is not a very good time for investments, not because you will necessarily lose out, but because you just won’t know for sure, and you will be tempted to gamble even when it is a poor risk. For the same reason, in business deals be sure you are not the victim of a massive misrepresentation.With this influence it is best to avoid purely selfish concerns, for when your actions are thus motivated you are most likely to encounter its negative side.

Short Report – Forecast July 2016 to December 2016

for Nell Bell (female)
born on 19 October 1949 local time: 8:15 am
in Sydney, AUSTL U.T.: 22-15
151e13, 33s52 sid. time: 10:08:07

Planetary positions

planet sign degree motion
Sun Libra 25°11’52 in house 11 direct
Moon Virgo 13°35’28 in house 10 direct
Mercury Libra 7°03’33 in house 11 direct
Venus Sagittarius 9°42’06 in house 12 direct
Mars Leo 25°20’13 in house 9 direct
Jupiter Capricorn 23°46’39 in house 2 direct
Saturn Virgo 15°08’19 in house 10 direct
Uranus Cancer 4°59’32 in house 7 retrograde
Neptune Libra 15°17’58 in house 11 direct
Pluto Leo 17°57’43 in house 9 direct
True Node Aries 16°40’02 in house 5 direct

House positions (Placidus)

Ascendant Sagittarius 19°31’50
2nd House Capricorn 11°58’22
3rd House Aquarius 4°12’34
Imum Coeli Aquarius 29°56’14
5th House Aries 2°27’06
6th House Taurus 11°30’57
Descendant Gemini 19°31’50
8th House Cancer 11°58’22
9th House Leo 4°12’34
Medium Coeli Leo 29°56’14
11th House Libra 2°27’06
12th House Scorpio 11°30’57


Pluto trine Saturn End of January 2015 until beginning of December 2016
Pluto square Neptune Beginning of February 2015 until mid-December 2016
Jupiter trine Jupiter End of December 2015 until mid-August 2016
Uranus opposition Sun Beginning of July 2016 until beginning of March 2018
Jupiter conjunction Mercury From 8 October 2016 until 17 October 2016
Jupiter conjunction Neptune Mid-November 2016 until end of July 2017



I dreamed today in the afternoon that I could convince Izzy to come back to me. But he is dead.

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I did Halloween yesterday. Iz loved Halloween and all celebration. So I did it. I drove my new little car and it was good. Poppy might have Hand Foot and Mouth which is a horrible disease. Everyone else is just fine.

I had a small day and it worked well.