3 MEETINGS IN 3 DAYS AND THE WORLD LOOKS SANE

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SUNRISE AT THE END OF THE FOOTBRIDGE

That’s all it takes. Most times. Mixing with other Addicts. Doing some Meetings and generally having a very good time.  I went out to the end of the Footbridge before dawn. I live a small life and needs pay attention to the small details or envy and resentment come flooding in.

So I watched the water more carefully this morning. I watched the sun rise. I watched the Walkers.  I took a side turn along the lower boardwalk and paused for a while.

I was less panicky and less self – obsessed than I have been.

I got a lift to the NA meeting with Dani. And went for lunch at Pomegranate with a group of 4 women.

Then Dani came home with me and weeded and dug out my garden

BRING ELDERHOOD BACK WITH YOU.

Arkue tells me that that is what I told her after the Coma , the Coma which I called the Dreaming when I woke up.

BRING ELDERHOOD BACK. 

Gradually , I am being driven into it. My beloved addict and alcoholic babies. So the cars fail and I am compelled to find other means to travel. And they come. The Pony from Shaz and Ant. The lifts from the Little Ones. 3 loaves of bread from Nera. Gardening and chats.

Today FEELS like the Dreaming . FEELS like what I was shown over there in other places of consciousness. And therefore I am less troubled and less sorrowful and less ashamed.

I am also less SAD – just for tonight.

And in the language of mixed fellowships – my primary purpose is to stay clean and help others attain recovery.

I live a small life and I have paid attention to the small details.

In addition, my electricity bills have been reduced from $63 per month to $38 per month.

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